(*the photo above is used without permission - but hopefully okay with - my friend Steve in Colorado. Thank you Steve, keep the photos coming. it does my heart good.)
Okay, I realize it's been more than a month since my last post - just before the fall Wildmen KS boot camp. the quick explination (other than having an overflowing plate), is that i want to break away from 'schedules' where i can. I could submit an informative, educational 'lesson' blog every week for you, but that was never my intent. i wanted it to be much more personal than that - more authentic - more, 'me'. and to try and fit that desire into a structured box of 'weekly blogs' takes away the element of hearing from God and what HE wants me to write about. So, blogs will be posted in the Father's timing and not mine... i hope. That may be more than one in a week, or it may be a month or more.
And with that, and the reason i was just now prompted to write, was after viewing some photos a friend of mine from Colorado takes. And my heart just comes alive every time i see them. ever since the first time i went skiing on a youth group trip there is something about being in the snow-covered moutains that makes my heart leap. I remember as a Junior in high school i was deep into a 'poetry phase' in life. and i wrote a poem (that's long since been lost) about being a mountain slope and the sensory overload i felt. i can't tell you how the poem read, but that i was incapable of putting into words how being out there made me feel. For me, being on a mountain while it's snowing, especially, has got to be the closest i feel to the presence of God. Just writing these words brings a lump in my throat; emotions welling.
so of course i go to colorado whenever i can. fortunately for me, my favorite writer and the inspiration behind Wildmen KS, lives in Colorado and puts on camps there each year! I hope to be there again this next March, on the work crew of a boot camp.
But the "Colorado Effect" for me is a deep sense of wonder. is my yearning for Colorado driven by my own desire, or is the Father speaking to my heart? I want to move to Colorado, really badly. Is that of my heart, or God's? This is just one of those questions i've been wrestling with for the last couple years. i hope for snow here at home... lots of snow. it's like a surrogate for the real thing out west. the winter of '07, even the ice storm that knocked out our power for 5 days was a welcome experience for me. that winter we got more snow than i can recall having here in Kansas (in my lifetime). and it was beautiful. it was breath-taking. it was God speaking directly to my heart. i hope He has much to say this winter too.