I want to be grateful, but it is as if being un·grateful is a way for me to control God. If I am never satisfied enough, maybe He'll keep having to prove Himself, and doesn't He enjoy proving Himself a giver of good gifts and winning my heart?
Clearly, I must revise my outlook in life. Life simply cannot always be as insufficient as I paint it to be.
Some people do not only receive blessings that I have not received, but specific blessings that I would actually want. This is frustrating, but mere "gratefulness" doesn't seem to be a sufficient solution to me.
I've reasoned that the only way to enjoy my blessings is: