No matter what comes out of those gates, we have a better chance of survival if we stay together.
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I am married with 3 children. My family is my first ministry, and very important to me. God is teaching me how to fight for them. I am thankful for Wild at Heart and the Band of Brothers material; it has changed my life. I am learning to live my life by following the Holy Spirit's lead. I have heard It called the Wild Goose Chase, and that is very much what it feels like. I see myself in the character of Aragorn when he was still the ranger wandering the wild; having lost hope but very much aware that there was a battle to be fought. Like him I had lost heart, and feared that I would wander alone for life. Then I found Wild at Heart, and I am seeing things change in my life and in the lives of the men who I now journey with. We are a small but growing Fellowship of Men in Festus Missouri. My reason for joining this network is to light the Beakons of Minas Tireth. To give hope to anyone like me(the ranger) that there is still something good left in the hearts of men through the power of the Spirit. We are never alone.
Hey man. I'm sorry I haven't responded promptly. I've neglected this network for no particular reason. I'd love to talk Wild at Heart. It may be best to email me at email@example.com to ensure I receive your correspondence.
You're right. There are just a myriad of reasons why guys would reject each other: inadequacy, edginess, preemptive defense mechanisms, things that dig up experiences of past abuse, etc. Sometimes I reject a guy, because I I feel far inferior to him, or I fear that he's so popular that I won't get any time with him. So many silly things. This is why I hang out with a guy who has a lot of acquaintances but few friends. Apparently I'm one of the few people who are oddly able to tolerate him. He has so much smarts to offer yet it's always the slick deviousness that seems to put him at a disadvantage. I suspect it's the same kind of defense mechanisms that keep people from wanting to be around me. God is enabling me to see his paintbrush perspective. There is always someone who sees something impressive in us, especially when we are sharing in God's glory. There is always someone who needs us. In fact I have discovered that one of the best father-son relationships I've heard of is found with a father who has had almost zero masculine identity - a feminine identity in fact. Apparently his son is very securely attached to him.
We have similar experiences in regard to self-hating and doubting God's love. For me, it has made very little sense. On the same day that I receive a blessing of fellowship or being able to love others, something else always happens that seems to throw me 10 steps backward scratching my head. How could I have a whole day of new, unexpected blessings and yet have one or two existing friendships that cause a spiritual shipwreck? After weeks and months of sleepless nights, I have just had it with all this anxiety. All the promptings of the Spirit leading me one way, while getting results that seem to point the opposite way. This is madness, and I put it out of my mind. What part of "It is finished" do I not understand?
You are right that I have "questions". I have had questions down to every corner of the universe about masculine friendships and community in general. I don't even know how to care about people. And only recently have I become overwhelmed by God's love. How fragile is my spiritual life. How exhausting. How much time have I spent suffering in the presence of God before I saw breakthroughs, while these young Christians around me get community and friendship coming out of their ears. They come in and out of each other's lives so naturally, yet they have the same degree of sins. Have THEY grown? I'VE grown. How much growth is enough before I even get a MORSEL of community?? Sometimes, there is just so much frustration that I can't stand it anymore. The frustration rises to HEAVEN.
Hi Daniel, sorry to be so late in responding. Yes, I have read Wild At Heart, and it changed my life! I'm trying to help our church put together a Mens Ministry Group, and John Eldridge has been a great supplier of topics and resources for this. How about you?
Daniel, now that is a good name. I do believe you will get good from The Phalanx Brotherhood. Welcome my brother.
Down in Texas I had an uncle . His name was Daniel Dean. My moms brother.
Hang in ther with the way of the wild heart . It is a great book.
When you can check out our Code of Conduct.
I'm going to have to watch it in more depth, Daniel, as at the time we just gave it an overview. I could see that there are a lot of messages in the movie which need to be pondered. When we are born again, we are definitely born into a battle, that is for sure. We fight, we get wounded, we get down, we get up, and sometimes we just lay in the fox hole for awhile and listen to the artillery. Hey, I've got to watch it more in depth before I go see the beaches. Thousands of my fellow Canadians died at Dieppe in a trial landing, many are unaware of this because history usually refer to us as "British" troops. I have always been filed with trembling at MacCrae's poem, "In Flanders' Fields", which we, his fellow Canadians, were made to memorize in the early grades of elementary school:
".......to you from failing hands we throw the torch, be yours to hold it high,
if ye break faith with us who die we shall not sleep,
though poppies blow in Flanders' Fields."
I think that generations have come along now who do not realize what a great price has been paid for freedom on more than one plane. They do not realize that if it not fought for, it will be lost....